What is your biggest fear?

Death is the 6th most feared thing in the world. The number 1 most feared thing is Public Speaking. Logically this is the case.
I have been frightened many times and death is not one of the factors. I remember, there was once when I was walking pass ( I dunno what we call it ) an entrance to a condo parking space. There is a steel thingy that goes up for the car to pass ,then it comes down signalling the car to stop. I was walking pass that thing and jsut by LESS THAN A METRE, the thing fell down. Normally that thing is covered by something but in that old apartment, that steel was quite sharp. I was very calm at that time.

Second experience was in the open sea. I was trying hard to go underwater.....which means I did not wear any life jacket. The water wave was so strong that I went hard against it. My muscles were tired already because I have been swimming for 3 days in a row. I wasn't too far away and there were rocks somewhere. I 'dislocated' my right shoulder.......a normal injury for swimmers , badminton and tennis players. This injury comes from the rotator cuff ....one of the parts of our shoulders. I could not move my right arm AT ALL due to extreme pain. What I did was I thought I was going to die ....but pain is something normal to me.I swam using my legs of course and my left arm to a place that have rocks so that I can rest. After thinking how to solve this problem, suddenly , I pressed my rotator cuff . My right arm could move again.

* To those who do not know where the rotator cuff is , it is actually located on the back of the shoulder. If you play badminton after a long period of not playing, u will feel that your rotator cuff aching the next day.
The rotator cuff is one of the weakest links of a sportsman and is one of the most important group of muscles in sports.Try massaging your shoulder after you kena this type of injury because it could save lives.*

After that,of course I swam back to the shore....and things were alright again. We need a lot of time for full recovery. Partial recovery...erm..about 1-2 weeks time. I was working hard in the gym after that injury and suddenly when I reached plateau in weight lifting,I could feel pain on my right shoulder again. Maybe history repeats? I stopped gym until now.

So, death is definitely not one of the most feared things in the world ...because most of us live in suffering. To me, my most feared thing is not being able to survive in this world. I have gone thru a lot as a full time trader and to be honest, I have overcome my own greatest fear.

What about you?